Thursday, 27 August 2015

MWYA Random Ramblings ~ Dear Future Love of My Life

Dear Future Love of My Life


I hope you arrive soon, but I know you are making your way to me as fast as you can. You will arrive at the perfect time when we are ready to meet (if we haven't met already).

I know you need to go through things so that you can be ready to meet me and visa versa so we can truly appreciate each other.

I hope I know its you when we first meet, if you are already in my life, I hope when I do realise its you, it knocks me off my feet.

Here is one of the few things I want you know, if a girl hasn't already explained this to you: 

I want to hear from you.


There is no such thing as being too busy only a matter of priorities. I don't always need long lengthy conversations, just a smiley face and quick thinking of you will be enough to make my day complete and I'll be beaming with joy. We both have jobs and get busy - I get it.  

I am sorry about the girl who broke your heart, I am not her. Please don't shut me out. I know you are not my ex's or any of the players that hurt me, so I will try not to punish you for their mistakes. I will work on trusting you and I will work to earn you trust equally.

I won't do anything to you that I wouldn't want done to me. Only the first time is a mistake, every time after that is a choice. I'll put you first and love you with all I got and all that I am capable of. 

Love is always a risk. Risking a little, gains you a little. Risking a lot... well you get my drift so I might as well give you all I have to give. I took time out to heal from past hurts so that I know I am complete and ready to love you the way you deserve to be loved and I know you will be worth my investment - not of the money type but of my love and time. 

I can be moody and sensitive at times, but I hope you love me anyway. My sensitivity allows me to understand things better and love more deeply. Don't use it against me, love me for it. You are not perfect either but I know you will be perfect for me. 

Here is another thing you need to know: 

I always bounce back to a good happy place, love me regardless of where I am at. If I go too far, hold my hand and bring me back. I'll always be there for you too. 

I am not a fighter and I don't believe fights should lead to breakups. I am not one of those people that break up a millions times and then go through it all over again. If you want to be with me, be with me and stick it out. It's not the end we are just smoothing out the wrinkles or hitting a speed bump. If we can't get over it together, at least we can try and find a way around it.... together. 

'The challenge of being together is at staying together and working through things together' ~ my awesome cousin Jean

The things that tear normal couples apart, bring great couples even closer together. 

I don't ever want to go to sleep with angry words between us and please never give me the silent treatment. There is probably nothing worse than that. 

Don't underestimate my strength to stand my ground. I am a peace keeper but I know what I will and won't stand for.


I will only ever have eyes for you, 
I hope you love me enough that I am that for you too. 

I'll always do my best to: 


- Pick you up when you are down

- turn your frown upside down
- make you laugh
- give you hope
- cheer you on towards your goals 
- dream dream dream together
- have as much fun as possible and live the best life we are capable of

I don't need expensive things. I just want you. I can have all the material things in the world but if I don't have you, my best friend - it means nothing. Memories are so much more valuable. Take me to the beach, let's go swim in the sea or snorkel, buy an ice-cream and then go home and fall asleep while watching a movie or something. Simple things in life make me happy. 



I love to travel, let's go explore! 

I don't want teddy's and chocolates on Valentine Day. Roses and Sushi while chilling next to a fire is just fine with a bottle of champagne. I don't care about the day itself, it's about the effort and thought more than anything else. 

I love surprises and I love to celebrate! #JustPuttingItOutThere


What's the point if we can't appreciate and celebrate even the smallest things in life. Be happy and be grateful. 


There are 5 important days to me:

- Your Birthday, My Birthday, Our Anniversary, Valentines Day and Christmas. 


Family is important. Yours, mine and hopefully one day ours. 




Coming home to you will always be the best part of my day. 
Take those two minutes to hug me tight and kiss me hello. 

Novelties never get old. 

Love 
Chanzie



Monday, 24 August 2015

MWYA Random Ramblings ~ Dear Insecure Girlfriend



Dear Insecure Girlfriend


Great I got your attention.


This might come as a surprise to you but I have been where you are. For just a moment I would like to talk to you and hopefully show you another perspective or side to this little war or debacle you think we might be having. I promise you this is not the case.  


Here is the first the first thing I want to tell you: 

If he is flirting with me while he has an amazing girlfriend like you 
- I definitely don't want him.

I know there are some really messed up girls out there that really don't give a dam and wouldn't hesitate two seconds to cross the line and take what they want regardless of who they step on. I am not that type of girl, so please don't throw me into that box. I do have morals, values and standards. I know I made mistakes too when I was younger but we all have to grow up sometime. 

If he is in a committed relationship and he is flirting with other girls, he automatically falls into the idiot / douche bag category in my books. 

If he can do it to you, he can do it to me. It's that simple.


I don't mind if a guy is chatting to me and 10 girls at the same time - as long as he isn't in a committed relationship or leading them on to believe they have a future. But the minute a guy has set his intentions on one girl... I have enough respect to walk away. I don't know you but I respect you and what belongs to you.

When you see me out being happy, having fun and laughing. That's all I am doing. Not scheming and plotting to steal your man. I firmly believe: How it begins is how it ends. 

I get it - There is a fine line between friendly and flirting. It is a conversation that I have had with a few of my ex's a few times over the past few years. You don't know what I have been through to get to where I am today, and I don't know what he has done to make you feel like you are anything less than beautiful and worth it. It took a massive heartbreak and a lot of tears and healing for me to get to a comfortable happy spot again. If I wanted to have another boyfriend by now, I could have had one but I deserve a good one too. 

I am sorry you thought all those terrible things about me because he was being a selfish insensitive ass. Please know I would never do that to you because I would never want that done to me again. I don't know how I became 'that girl' but it does suck. I don't want to be viewed as a piece of meat or a trophy. 

My last point to consider is that maybe I already have a person that I like and he has my full attention and he is the only one I want to be flirting with, we not dating but hopefully we will.

The only thing I ask you is that I hope you realise how amazing you are and that you are totally worth it. Don't put up with being treated anything less than amazing. You deserve someone who only has eyes for you.

Love
That Supposed Girl


Thursday, 20 August 2015

MWYA Random Ramblings ~ Welcome to the Expat Life




~ Welcome to the expat life ~


The Expat life: It can be awesome, good, great, bad, sad, tough, adventurous, amazing and sometimes even heartbreaking. 

It is the ultimate lesson of living in the moment and not getting attached. You'll meet amazing people you might never see again and you'll randomly meet people who might be in your life again sooner than you think. 

The right people always come along at the right time, its just up to you to seize the moment. They might hurt you, it will always be a risk, or they might be the best thing that has happened to you in a long time. 

You'll do things you never imagined and see places or things beyond your wildest dreams and have the most interesting fascinating and crazy conversations. 

It can be crazy fun amazing. It is up to you to embrace and appreciate it.

People will challenge you, teach you or help you - whatever it is, it will help you grow. 

They will make you sad, mad or crazy but they can also make you laugh, live or love beyond measure. 

The ones who challenge you are the ones who probably bless you and teach you the most. Thank them, even if its just in your mind.

You find friendships in the strangest of places and at the most random times but its a gift!

Life can be unpredictable,exciting, and hard at times but it can be and will most probably always be totally worth it.


Soundtrack of My Life ~ Sexy Chick




Hey Hey RockStars!!!

Welcome back to the soundtrack of my life. I really do just love it when I hear an old school favourite and it brings back of flood of memories and good times. Music lights up my spirit that is for sure. So I was somewhere out and about and either heard this song or something triggered the memory linked to it. 

Bumpy and Me
You know when you find a song and you literally have it on replay in your car, on your iPod and maybe even as your ringtone? Yeah I am pretty sure this was one of those songs for me. This is a song from 5 years ago, so I was about 24 years old and Guy and I had been dating for about 3 years and life was good. We were supremely happy and lived in a loft apartment (I loved it - there is just something about sleeping upstairs, being close to the roof and especially when it rained) and we always had something on the go or going on. 

So lets get down to the song... oh it was such a failure of a mission but definitely one of my best memories! 
Sexy Chick by David Guetta ft Akon


So it was a Friday night and for some reason we did not have people over?? This was a rare occasion as our house had a flow of friends through it all the time. Most times it felt like we were the party house. Some people even got into trouble for even sneaking off to our place! Once we even had a friends band playing in our living room and we lived in a complex #OurPoorNeighbours - but that is a story for another day. 


Christell and Me

Anyway back to this Friday night. So I was in the mood for some fun and an adventure and apparently so was Guy. So as we were sitting there trying to think up of something fun to do (9pm at night)- one of us mentioned Jeffreys Bay... So I said why don't we just go there for a party? It didn't take much to convince Guy - who was always up for a good time. So we called up our best mate, Bumpy (who had recently broke up with his Ex) and informed him we were coming to kidnap him and take him with us on a party mission to JBay. Yep we did - told him to be ready in 20 minutes as we were on our way. Bumpy was working the next morning at 7am but we were not taking no for an answer and told him it was out duty as his best mates to take him on this adventure with us. Good times guarateed. Excitement was buzzing in the air! We arrived at his place and missioned in my good old faithful Golf (As I think I was the only one with enough fuel). 

It is about a 40-50 minute drive (Which is far for anyone who lives in Port Elizabeth - anything further than 20 minutes and you need to pack a picnic). We popped in the party cd and blasted it to the max. 

So we arrived in Jbay.... and it was as dead as a graveyard. There was absolutely nothing going on anywhere. We drove around to a few places... nothing! So eventually at about 2 am we decided to abandon the mission and head home. 

Look it wasn't a complete disaster.. we have a fab time - just the three of us and we laughed until we there were tears in our eyes and our stomachs hurt. 




(Since then Bumpy did meet and marry the love of his life, Christell, and they are extremely happy. They are both still two of my best friends.)


Life was good and I wouldn't change a thing or trade that memory for anything. 


I just want to add that I totally love the white swimsuit in this video and if I wasn't so paranoid about weird tan lines I would own it by now!! 


Thank you for taking this trip down memory lane with me!

Good times - June 2015

Peace out
x



This isn't a blog hop but feel free to join in and visit the very awesome blog of Robin @ Your Daily Dose. These are posts where I write about a song and the story linked to it.

StMcC Presents BATTLE OF THE BANDS
Cherdo on the Flipside 
Holli's Hoots and Hollers 
THE DOGLADY'S DEN

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