Monday, 25 January 2016

A Note To My Younger Self

Photo Credit: Guy from M 3/3

Dear Younger Self

I wish I could prepare you for what you will go through between where you are now and where you will be in the future. Thing is, it's happened and I am still unprepared. I do wish I knew then what I know now. Maybe it would have helped me make better decisions and be a little stronger. But if you knew... you would not be who I am now. And I am pretty happy with who I am now. I laugh more and worry less. 

Somethings will never change. I still hate leaving and saying goodbye. I still love Sushi and probably have a more adventurous spirit than when I was younger. I still take time to appreciate the little things and remain forever grateful at heart. 

The trials have made me stronger and grow up a lot too. You will do things you never thought you would, take on challenges and conquer them, even though it takes every single bit of courage you have and then some more. 

Here is what I wish I knew most though.. I wish I trusted myself and loved who I was a little bit more and did a little bit less criticizing of myself. 

Always remember sometimes good things fall apart so that great things can fall together. 
So have faith. 

All My Love 


Sunday, 1 November 2015

Chanzie's Backpack iPod Adventures #1 - Loving Penang

Hello Awesome People of the World

I know I have been extremely quiet but life has been busy. Teaching just consumes you sometimes and I was working on the October Camp for my school which was 7 days a week for almost an entire month! Other than going through some life changes, I wasn't actually sure what to share and what to write.  

Then another adventure appeared in my life and I felt like I had something to share again!!! I think most of the teachers here don't enjoy the trip to Penang for a visa run and the border crossing can be a bit stressful but I decided that Penang is fun and I meet the most interesting people which just makes it awesome and what you wish you will receive. 

The time came for another trip to Penang for a new visa. To say the few weeks before this was stressful for me is an understatement but that's how you learn right? So my visa expired on the 20th October but I was supposed to leave Thailand on the 19th. We only handed in the application for my work permit in the 19th and it takes 3 days to process. Hence, I went into overstay in Thailand. What stressed me out the most about this is the question: Will this be a mark in my travel record and name for the rest of my life? I truly hope this won't be held against me in the future for my future travels.

(Just want to mention that an Indonesia haze pulled in at this point and I ventured out to buy a mask. I never thought I'd be at a point where I'd want a mask but I could totally feel my chest closing up and a bit of a headache from it! Rather safe than sorry.)

I picked up my work permit on the morning of the 22nd. They only granted me a 6 month permit due to RSA being on some watch list or something *sigh*. Anyway my HR dude took me to Hat Yai where I caught a minivan to Penang. I was travelling on my own for the first time in a long time and not too a specific person either. This felt like true winging it!! Plus, I was totally Wifi dependent when you cross the Sadoa Thai/Malaysian border. I understand the saying 'I love you more than Wifi' now... 

When I got to the border I was fined 1500 baht for being in overstay. The lady who was 'fining' me was not so friendly at all but I just nodded and paid. Then her boss walked in and had the hugest smile - for some reason he took a liking to me, whether it be my green eyes or blond hair, I was happy to see a friendly face and smiled back. Once again I thank my parents for my features that work for me, as they say if you got it and it works for you, use it!

4 hours later, I arrived in Penang.

Another point before we get to the visa deets... I was not in Penang for even 20 minutes and a local started talking to me and gave me his telephone number saying I must come eat a burger at his stall somewhere in Penang... Ha ha he wanted me to go with him like right then!! Eish... I politely declined and detangled myself from that situation. I was a bit freaked out that he might have been following me, because first he walked into the first shop I went into and complimented me on my skin...??? Then I saw him in the second shop I went into for water and then again he pulled up on his motorcycle while I was walking to find the hotel I wanted to book into before heading to do my visa stuff. After he left I wasn't sure if he turned around to head back my way so I quickly ducked into the hotel!!

I dropped off my bag and headed straight to Banana Inn, the visa place I used last time, thinking get my visa papers in asap but to my slight panic they told me they cannot process my visa for me as one of my documents was not an original!! Eish!!! Lucky the lady was so nice, she told me that if I went straight to the Thai consulate and did the application myself, there should be no problems. Eeek!!! She would help me get a taxi there the next morning.

Well I hoped for the best otherwise someone from my school was going to have to bring me this very important document, because I am unable yo get back into Thailand without a visa!! All my stuff is there. Worst case I guess I could have just bought a flight back to RSA and figure out my life from there. But keeping positive thoughts here that all would be okay and the process would be smooth and easy.

So off I went back to my hostel which I enjoyed staying at - The Red Inn. Only 25 Ringett a night (isn't that such a cool currency name!!! Ringett I love it). After settling in I took a shower and then headed out to find some food. Originally I went to this Briyani restaurant but they were a bit pricey so I found a nice little road stall and bought some noodle type dish - it was very good. There were actually no tables available so I asked if I could sit with the only two western type looking people. They were pretty cool and polite. A Brit and an Italian - making new friends. So we headed to The Reggae bar for a drink. Much to my delight it was ladies night and I could have free drinks until 9 pm. *savings score*.

I love Penang. 

You are basically guaranteed to meet awesome interesting people. Travellers unite ha ha ha. By 9 pm we had a variety of nationalities at our table including: (OK all my good stories clearly start with...) A German, Swiss, Brit, Italian, Czech, Mexican, Malaysian and of course me a South African. Can you believe I was giving a few of them a crash course in basic Thai phrases!! I was so proud ha ha ha

Fun times!! Eish... I even got my heart broken by the Mexican... So we were talking about how I love Spanish and want to learn it plus that I love Mexican Food - when he informed me that... wait for it.... Nachos... my all beloved favourite Mexican dish... Was in fact not Mexican at all!!! Wait What... heart shattered and dreams broken *sigh* not cool dude. Anyway he made up for it by teaching me a few Spanish words. Did you know burrito means little donkey... bwahahaha laugh of the evening for me for sure!

We all chilled and chatted until about 11 pm, connected on Facebook and whatsapp before I headed home for some much needed sleep. I woke at about 7 am but snoozed until about 7:45am. Got ready, had two slices of toast before heading down to Banana Inn. I decided to try a mango smoothie type drink too - only in Asia man... a straw and a bag. It was yummy though! So next, off I went to the Thai consulate. 

I love the randomness of life. So there was a very kind Malaysian dude that helped me fill out all the forms, all went smoothly and I started randomly talking to an American who was also applying for a 3 month visa and happens to be a diving instructor! We caught a cab back to Chulia street and grabbed a bite to eat at this coffee shop that serve the most delicious salmon and cream cheese bagel ever!!! Only after an hour did we realise we didn't know each others name. Lol, I said our visas will expire round the same time so maybe will see him in 3 months. He joked and said we will probably be penang buddies ha ha ha. So add another nationality to the list!

Anyway I made my way back to my hostel and needed to decide if I was going to KL to try watch the MotoGP or chill in Penang until Monday. I figured you know what... its not every weekend there is a GP close by and worst case its an adventure to KL if I cannot get a ticket. I can explore Penang next time. Plus 2 friends from Songkhla were in KL for the MotoGP. Why not I ask?? Plus I know at least one friend (Buzz) who would kill for this opportunity... so doing it for me and doing it for him!!! He is a Rossi fan and my new Mexican friend is a Marquez fan...  So will see.

So I hopped on a bus and took another detour in this adventure!!

... To Be Continued ...

Thursday, 27 August 2015

MWYA Random Ramblings ~ Dear Future Love of My Life

Dear Future Love of My Life

I hope you arrive soon, but I know you are making your way to me as fast as you can. You will arrive at the perfect time when we are ready to meet (if we haven't met already).

I know you need to go through things so that you can be ready to meet me and visa versa so we can truly appreciate each other.

I hope I know its you when we first meet, if you are already in my life, I hope when I do realise its you, it knocks me off my feet.

Here is one of the few things I want you know, if a girl hasn't already explained this to you: 

I want to hear from you.

There is no such thing as being too busy only a matter of priorities. I don't always need long lengthy conversations, just a smiley face and quick thinking of you will be enough to make my day complete and I'll be beaming with joy. We both have jobs and get busy - I get it.  

I am sorry about the girl who broke your heart, I am not her. Please don't shut me out. I know you are not my ex's or any of the players that hurt me, so I will try not to punish you for their mistakes. I will work on trusting you and I will work to earn you trust equally.

I won't do anything to you that I wouldn't want done to me. Only the first time is a mistake, every time after that is a choice. I'll put you first and love you with all I got and all that I am capable of. 

Love is always a risk. Risking a little, gains you a little. Risking a lot... well you get my drift so I might as well give you all I have to give. I took time out to heal from past hurts so that I know I am complete and ready to love you the way you deserve to be loved and I know you will be worth my investment - not of the money type but of my love and time. 

I can be moody and sensitive at times, but I hope you love me anyway. My sensitivity allows me to understand things better and love more deeply. Don't use it against me, love me for it. You are not perfect either but I know you will be perfect for me. 

Here is another thing you need to know: 

I always bounce back to a good happy place, love me regardless of where I am at. If I go too far, hold my hand and bring me back. I'll always be there for you too. 

I am not a fighter and I don't believe fights should lead to breakups. I am not one of those people that break up a millions times and then go through it all over again. If you want to be with me, be with me and stick it out. It's not the end we are just smoothing out the wrinkles or hitting a speed bump. If we can't get over it together, at least we can try and find a way around it.... together. 

'The challenge of being together is at staying together and working through things together' ~ my awesome cousin Jean

The things that tear normal couples apart, bring great couples even closer together. 

I don't ever want to go to sleep with angry words between us and please never give me the silent treatment. There is probably nothing worse than that. 

Don't underestimate my strength to stand my ground. I am a peace keeper but I know what I will and won't stand for.

I will only ever have eyes for you, 
I hope you love me enough that I am that for you too. 

I'll always do my best to: 

- Pick you up when you are down

- turn your frown upside down
- make you laugh
- give you hope
- cheer you on towards your goals 
- dream dream dream together
- have as much fun as possible and live the best life we are capable of

I don't need expensive things. I just want you. I can have all the material things in the world but if I don't have you, my best friend - it means nothing. Memories are so much more valuable. Take me to the beach, let's go swim in the sea or snorkel, buy an ice-cream and then go home and fall asleep while watching a movie or something. Simple things in life make me happy. 

I love to travel, let's go explore! 

I don't want teddy's and chocolates on Valentine Day. Roses and Sushi while chilling next to a fire is just fine with a bottle of champagne. I don't care about the day itself, it's about the effort and thought more than anything else. 

I love surprises and I love to celebrate! #JustPuttingItOutThere

What's the point if we can't appreciate and celebrate even the smallest things in life. Be happy and be grateful. 

There are 5 important days to me:

- Your Birthday, My Birthday, Our Anniversary, Valentines Day and Christmas. 

Family is important. Yours, mine and hopefully one day ours. 

Coming home to you will always be the best part of my day. 
Take those two minutes to hug me tight and kiss me hello. 

Novelties never get old. 


Monday, 24 August 2015

MWYA Random Ramblings ~ Dear Insecure Girlfriend

Dear Insecure Girlfriend

Great I got your attention.

This might come as a surprise to you but I have been where you are. For just a moment I would like to talk to you and hopefully show you another perspective or side to this little war or debacle you think we might be having. I promise you this is not the case.  

Here is the first the first thing I want to tell you: 

If he is flirting with me while he has an amazing girlfriend like you 
- I definitely don't want him.

I know there are some really messed up girls out there that really don't give a dam and wouldn't hesitate two seconds to cross the line and take what they want regardless of who they step on. I am not that type of girl, so please don't throw me into that box. I do have morals, values and standards. I know I made mistakes too when I was younger but we all have to grow up sometime. 

If he is in a committed relationship and he is flirting with other girls, he automatically falls into the idiot / douche bag category in my books. 

If he can do it to you, he can do it to me. It's that simple.

I don't mind if a guy is chatting to me and 10 girls at the same time - as long as he isn't in a committed relationship or leading them on to believe they have a future. But the minute a guy has set his intentions on one girl... I have enough respect to walk away. I don't know you but I respect you and what belongs to you.

When you see me out being happy, having fun and laughing. That's all I am doing. Not scheming and plotting to steal your man. I firmly believe: How it begins is how it ends. 

I get it - There is a fine line between friendly and flirting. It is a conversation that I have had with a few of my ex's a few times over the past few years. You don't know what I have been through to get to where I am today, and I don't know what he has done to make you feel like you are anything less than beautiful and worth it. It took a massive heartbreak and a lot of tears and healing for me to get to a comfortable happy spot again. If I wanted to have another boyfriend by now, I could have had one but I deserve a good one too. 

I am sorry you thought all those terrible things about me because he was being a selfish insensitive ass. Please know I would never do that to you because I would never want that done to me again. I don't know how I became 'that girl' but it does suck. I don't want to be viewed as a piece of meat or a trophy. 

My last point to consider is that maybe I already have a person that I like and he has my full attention and he is the only one I want to be flirting with, we not dating but hopefully we will.

The only thing I ask you is that I hope you realise how amazing you are and that you are totally worth it. Don't put up with being treated anything less than amazing. You deserve someone who only has eyes for you.

That Supposed Girl